. - 5:59 AM
i haven't been able to sleep for 3nights, and i don't noe what to expect tonight. i just go to bed at 1230am, coz i have to get up by 730am. but i only actually fall asleep at 2am. the rest of the time is spent staring at the ceiling, with thoughts through my mind. i have no idea what i'm thinking about too, just like if i have to call up vodafone for admin stuff, do i have to go to the library to borrow a textbook for my recommended reading, do i have to phone my pregnant patient to arrange for a house visit and if so how do i go about asking her, and den i start worrying i won't understand her over the phone. think of money woes. mom tells me abt the finances and i get worried. den i think i have to study hard to get 60% to retain the scholarship. den i go back and think shit i have to sleep. and den i think why in the world am i noe sleeping, i have important lectures tomorrow. and the cycle goes on :(
my hairs in a mess, the new hair has grown far too long, i need to colour and rebond it again. i need new contact lenses coz i can't see with my current pair!
the only thing i'm looking forward to is this friday, when i'm going for my pizza hut buffet! and french toast saturday. ok i've just had a really late dinner and i'm feeling so full i can't get myself to look at the anatomy of the heart -.-
anyway, yes if anyone is wondering, or would agree to go out with me when i'm back, i'm arriving at 1835 on the 23rd of Dec.